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Crazy Idea No. 9: Permission


Why do I think I need permission to enjoy life?

For some crazy reason, granting myself permission is often a crazy idea. I hesitate to do something, because I’m looking for permission. I want someone else to say it’s okay for me to proceed.

But as I have matured, ahem, grown older, I have learned that some things in my life no longer need a permission slip to be signed by my parent. I am very capable of  making my own decisions. And with that I accept full responsibility for my actions.

I took a couple days off from posting here, and my old tendency would have been to feel like a failure. But I am learning that setting a goal, and missing a couple days will not derail me, nor define me, nor cause a catastrophic epidemic of world wide scope. No, I’ll just get back to it, when the right time is indicated. Like today.

When I realized I wouldn’t be able to blog for a couple days, I started to fret. But then, as I settled into a couple days off to celebrate life with my husband of almost 31 years, I gave myself a break. I didn’t chide myself, and I decided I could get back here when we had internet access again. (Since we’re out on the boat, sometimes we don’t have very good coverage. A crazy idea to be without connectivity, right? But sometimes unplugging is very good for the soul!) So I’m back with my crazy idea to write for the rest of October, and perhaps for a few extra days in November, who knows?) I give myself permission to see how life goes, and decide later.

What do you need permission for? Will you grant it to yourself? Do you need me to sign a permission slip for you? (*insert smiley face)

For of His fullness we have all received, and grace upon grace. (John 1:16 NASB)



5 responses to “Crazy Idea No. 9: Permission”

  1. You sound wonderfully healthy and free from the need to prove anything. Insert applause. Writing myself a mental note to stop fretting over my next post!

    1. Yay! Freedom and permission…such gifts!

  2. I am so glad you are doing this, Kel! What a good example you’re setting me! I’ve reached a point in this 31-days deal where I am getting distractions and hindrances to posting daily, especially with the qualification I’ve given myself not to flash-publish without giving a post at least a little sit time, then proofing for erroneous messages. Also, I’m slated to go away on a silent retreat this coming weekend, where I’ll be out of internet for three days myself! I’d thought I could get posts prepared ahead and scheduled to publish automatically while I’m away, but lately I’ve gotten doubtful about even getting the day’s post up and out!
    All this is making me tense, and that’s choking up the writing pipes! Your post gives me the grace toward myself that I need. It may just be that I need to take a day or two off to get calmed down and get my bearings. Just that realization relaxes me—which in turn makes me feel freer to write! “Permission” isn’t crazy at all!
    God bless you, Kel! I thank God for you!

  3. Sylvia-Thanks you so much for being honest about the feelings you go through as you keep up your commitment as you are able. I’ve been enjoying your collages and look forward to how you finish out the month. Your retreat sounds wonderful! I am glad we’re on this journey together. Blessings to you-Kel

  4. […] first I “happened” to get notification of Kel Rolf’s post called “Permission.” I read it. I found lots of good sense in it. And I decided, as she, to give myself permission to […]

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Hi! My name is Kel Rohlf. I am an intuitive mixed-media artist, creative writer and performer. Life is a performance. I often attend.


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