Why are You so far from helping Me,
And from the words of My groaning?
Kel, this is a gut-wrenchingly honest post, and I appreciate your stark vulnerability. I don't know if I would say that death trumps life so many times that it is not possible not to lose hope, but it sure feels that way sometimes. I think ulimately if we know Christ, we can't lose hope. We just misplace it. He IS the hope, and if we have Him we always have hope, even if we can't perceive it, because by His Spirit, He lives inside us. We can't lose Him, ergo, we can't lose hope. As the lyrics to O Holy Night (American version) imply, the light of faith always exists. Even the Kings were "orienting" themselves to the Light. (Orient means East or sunrise). So as Christians, let us turn our hearts eastward to the sunrise, to the Sonrise, and when we do, we will see the light of His countenance, which always overcomes darkness. Thanks for this meaningful post!Love,Lynni
Kel, I agree with Lynn in that this is a gut-wrenchingly honest post. And I too appreciate your stark vulnerability! As one who is just coming out of a very long, seven-year-wilderness experience, I knew despair. I too thought of Marilda's line: To despair is to turn your back on God. No. I never once turned my back on God. I knew He was carrying me; there for me; and I held on tightly to the hem of His Garment.Thank you for a beautiful post, Kel. Thank you for your heart!
Lynni- I love how God orients us to Himself through shining the light in the darkness…I hesitated to post this "confession"…but I think it's better to admit our struggles and process the darkness so that we will be able to see the Light in the morning…Hope is born out of despair.
Diane- Thanks you for admitting that the way is a wilderness, sometimes quite an extended one at that…truly God is with us through every dark and bright season…despair is just one way of admitting our desparate need for His everlasting arms!
Kel–how ironic………sitting at home today with a sinus infection myself. Blech! How funny that we equate/connect our physical health to our spiritual lives sometimes. The line about letting 'hopelessness do it's work' really resonated. I just read in Oswald today about the danger of stepping in to stop God's work in others' lives because we want to keep them from despair. We are such humans, eh? I always love my visits with you.
Sorry you are feeling poorly. I hope you feel better…I am little by little getting there…I had fun posting a link to your blog and reading some of your archives today…I like your poem about not being and A to Z kind of gal…I like order, but I rarely can keep everything in order…I can relate 🙂
Hi! My name is Kel Rohlf. I am an intuitive mixed-media artist, creative writer and performer. Life is a performance. I often attend.
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